Monday, October 11, 2010

Really torn

I'm nearing 5 years at Google and I'm really trying to decide whether recruiting is something that I want to continue doing. I personally think I'd be a better college recruiter, but that's a different story.

So I had quite a traumatizing event last Thursday that was kind of the final straw in making me think about switching careers. It wasn't something that happened at work, but rather in my personal life. It has to do with one of my biggest insecurities being exposed and pretty much putting my self esteem at rock bottom. Probably the lowest I've felt as a human. I couldn't really show that at the time, though.

If I can save one person from feeling what I felt last Thursday night, then I can leave this planet in peace. I really do think it's why I was put here. What I want to pursue isn't glamorous but has the potential to save and improve people's lives for the better. Plus, it's just good information to know from a practicality standpoint.

I've had this idea of pursuing a Masters in Nutrition for the longest time. Well, probably 2 years. I've never really acted on it, but it's something I'm almost 100% set upon after Thursday. I want to make sure people are armed with knowledge so they can make the right decisions.

If I were to have an ideal careers/scenario, I'd want to pursue weight loss management for gay youth. I think it's a completely underserved market/area that needs huge attention, not only from a nutritional standpoint, but from a counseling/psychology standpoint too.

I think weight loss is really a combination of 3 parts: 1) Nutrition/Diet, 2) Excercise/Physical Activity, 3) Psychological.

I don't think I could ever be an expert at all 3, cause I'd need to be a nutritionist, personal trainer, and psychologist all in one. Probably not going to happen in my lifetime. I could reasonably choose to knock down one of those, though.

I think I'll save the bitching of last Thursday for another time. But in reality, I don't think I've shed this many tears ever.

Posted via email from sunset to SUNRISE

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Sorry to hear that Will, I am intrigued now on what was said to you to hurt you so badly.

~A

Will K. said...

Aww, thanks Alex! I'm getting better by the day. The good thing is that I'm really focused on myself and getting a lot done. :)