Getting Tired of It

With all of the folks leaving my workplace after many years of working there for one reason or another (going back to school to wanting different work experience), I'm starting to really think hard of what I want career-wise. It's getting close to an un-official 4 years at the GOOG/YouTube. I love the company and the co-workers, but something is really off.

Today was an exhausting day. I haven't had this bad of a work week ever really in my near 4 years of working at GOOG. Drama is sky high. People aren't being professional. I'm getting called out all while dollars are at stake. The pressure is high and I'm not really digging it. In fact, I'm over it. I'm doing work that started out as a favor and is now taking a significant portion of my time. I can't focus and am pulled in a billion different directions. I'm dealing with customers of all segments (GMS, DCS, Torso and Long Tail) and people don't seem to seem to understand how difficult it is to juggle processes for all of these types of customers.

I know bad work weeks shouldn't get the best of me. It's sorta like when personal drama shouldn't affect work life. The weeks don't seem to be getting better, though. And people leaving left and right don't seem to have a positive effect on morale.

I'm thankful my manager seems to want me to be happy. He's always had my back, which I really appreciate. In fact, he basically let me bitch at him for an hour today while we got coffee. He sensed my frustration (well, I'm not good at hiding things) and just chatted about job happiness. Now I have to think long and hard of what I want and solutions to get me there.

Missing the Midwest

This time of year always has me missing the Midwest. The Fall, my favorite season, is when I lived in Ann Arbor, Michigan in 2007. I loved the simplicity of life. Don't get me wrong, I took many trips to Chicago, Detroit and Toronto to inject some city in me, but I loved the leaves, weather, people and mid-size town living of A2. There is nothing like slowing down, noticing the small things and absorbing it all in. You also realize what life's really all about...

Here's to Ann Arbor and the midwest... <3 you.