He's finally got me to a point where now even I don't care.
Over 4 years of friendship and now I don't even care. I will always care about him as a person, but i really just don't care anymore about saving anything. He's too fucking stubborn and only sees things rationally independent of any emotional context. I have yet to figure out how to communicate in such a way that he will ever understand my point of view. But it's a challenge of communication that I would be up for solving as way to help improve my personal communication skills.
The ending of the friendship has affected my ability to access mutual friends but I'm gonna fight to maintain the relationships I've built independent of him.
Sides definitely feel like they've been chosen. People probably won't view it that way on an individual basis, but it's the feeling that I get. If there is an event, he will definitely be invited and I won't. I've already seen many cases of this. The feeling definitely sucks. Really sucks.
But life will move on but now feel like I have a sense of freedom. This will get better. It will get better.
One day I hope we go back to being friends. That day... I have no idea when that will be.
Over 4 years of friendship and now I don't even care. I will always care about him as a person, but i really just don't care anymore about saving anything. He's too fucking stubborn and only sees things rationally independent of any emotional context. I have yet to figure out how to communicate in such a way that he will ever understand my point of view. But it's a challenge of communication that I would be up for solving as way to help improve my personal communication skills.
The ending of the friendship has affected my ability to access mutual friends but I'm gonna fight to maintain the relationships I've built independent of him.
Sides definitely feel like they've been chosen. People probably won't view it that way on an individual basis, but it's the feeling that I get. If there is an event, he will definitely be invited and I won't. I've already seen many cases of this. The feeling definitely sucks. Really sucks.
But life will move on but now feel like I have a sense of freedom. This will get better. It will get better.
One day I hope we go back to being friends. That day... I have no idea when that will be.
1 comment:
Dear Will,
I am sorry to hear that you are going through this. I know from personal experiences that this is hard. But I think you have a great attitude and are putting things in the right perspective. I wish you the best.
~A
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